5 years is a long time!

Going through this old blog, I realize its been FIVE years since I've written anything!! There is one huge difference. I have another child now!! I am now the mother of two beautiful boys and on the journey of being a single mother!! It's only been 3 full days, I don't question my decision I just wish I planned a little better than I did. However I did the best I could with what I had! My blog will be filled with funny stories from my days or weeks, depending on how often I can come here to write. I have big plans for my future, but I read somewhere one time that if you tell too many people it wont happen. SO, on that note, yall will have to stay tuned!! Until I get more stuff figured out, I can't promise when I will be back! I will do my best to post often! My life is pretty hilarious!! :-) Here are some pictures to keep ya'll interested! These are from the boys birthday party and just random shots!!!

R I P Caylee Marie Anthony

The Case against Casey Anthony has ended…or has it? I know everyone is upset because she got away but look at it from the jury’s stand point, they had LAWS to follow, do I think they wanted to convict her, probably, since most were parents and grandparents but we can’t go off emotion. Which this case was entirely full of, emotion! Do I think it’s right this little girl lost her life to someone who was suppose to protect and provide for her? NO. I could NOT imagine, well let me back up yes I can. I went through post partum so bad with Parker, I didn’t want anything to do with him. Even though I gave birth to him, I didn’t feel like his mother, I honestly felt like my life was over like there was no point to do anything anymore. I would ignore him crying, and hope my husband would hear, and every time he cried I cried a little harder. It’s been 3 years since I’ve had Parker, and I still struggle with it. I love my son and would never do anything to hurt him, but I, unfortunately, know what’s it’s like to not want to be a mother. Mothers are held to such a high standard and I get it I do, BUT let not forget all the hormones that change, how the body changes, and how a mothers world is turned upside down by this tiny little individual who is relying solely on you to protect, and provide for. That’s A LOT for one person,, and when you throw in not having support..well it makes it harder. Not everyone can be a Mrs. Jones so to say, moms are humans believe it or not. I think if Cayle’s body was found earlier than 6months it would have been a different verdict but the fact is there was not much proof. There was no beyond a reasonable doubt she did it. There was no toxicology to show Casey did or didn’t drug her child, we know there was no broken bones because that is all that was left of the poor little child. I think the state of Florida did the best it could with that it had in its hands. It would have been morally wrong if they had gone off emotions, It was their duty to up hold the law and that’s not always pretty. I mean I know I didn’t want to be a mom but I could never go 31days without seeing my child or knowing where she was. And Ashton had a good point, Casey was really good at making up lies on the spot. And I have to agree with him when he said if the remains of that little girl had not been found she would still be there. No one but Cayle, the person who killed her and the good lord above know what truly happened. Casey may not be in jail physically after Thursday but she will forever be in her own prison. And the whole thing about her being molested..they said that’s why she lied? Come on, there are so many people that have been molested and didn’t do that, yes I know everyone is different but how in the world do you face your father and brother now. You told the ENTIRE world you were molested by both of them but yet they showed support by being at the trial for you? I know one thing for sure she’s a selfish person, but how did she get that way? No one is innocent except that poor baby girl. Although I do not agree with the verdict I can’t sit here and say I am ashamed of being a Pinellas county resident, they had to follow the law, plain and simple.

Becoming a consultant!

So today I signed up for Scentsy to be a consultant and sell their warmers and other things, I have to say I am beyond excited for this new adventure and cannot wait to see if and how well this takes off! For now here a link to my website to check things out, please don't hesitate to ask questions and keep in mind I just signed up so I am learning along with you!!
https://jenniferstoltenberg.scentsy.us/Home

Working on working out Wednesday!

Gotta love my corny titles for the day right?!!? Well today I finally went and ran. Only did 2miles because I was starting to hurt. My doctor said I should be good by today but I didn't want to over do it. Had to return my heart rate monitor because it wont work :( I was sooooooo bummed.

Terrible Tuesday!

I was looking forward to going running this morning..then I remembered I had class. After class I get a text from my SIL that I will be the most pissed off person when I get home...great I think. I come home and see the above library book ripped to shreds! I JUST PAID for the other one he lost..UGH and this time it was under my SIL's library card...EVEN better! I want a re-do..so I send Parker to his room with no T.V. for the rest of the night because of his poor choice, he and I both take a nap. Now What I should be doing is my CTAP paper for Ethics...but I seem to find so many other things to do!

Hopefully I can get my run on tomorrow and start my new Bob Harper workout dvd!!

Its almost been another whole year!!

Well Parker has turned 3 and started school since I blogged last. Its been a CRAZY year that went by way way way to fast! He has grown so much just since going to school, his vocabulary is amazingly better even though he has a few choice words that a 3 year old should not say..thanks to daddy! I started blogging again because I am hoping to stick to it this time and to record my cont weight loss journey. I've come 30lbs and have 20more to go before my *Goal* weight. There will be pictures of Parker as well as an update on my weight loss.

The things I've learned in the last 2 years

I now know why my mom did the things she did, here are a few I've come to realize

Going to the grocery store without Parker is my heaven but I spend more

Going to the bathroom is like having an audience Parker, the cat and Scooter

Telling Parker to pick up his toys is useless

I pick my battles or I'd do batty all day

Taking Naps with Parker is wonderful but I get nothing done during the day

Droping him off to mom's day out is awesome, but I miss him after an hour

Listening to him yell at scooter reminds me of myself

I truly know the meaning of theres no love like a mothers love

I do not think I can handle another child. I want to give him everything.

I might be bias but he is one cute kid with his mama's personality

The years go by much quicker with a child

I am thankful for my husband who does everything he can to make sure I dont have a job and I can get through school

Happy Birthday Parker

When did he get so big?

Yesterday we spent the morning with Deanna and Peyton then we had a party to go to at Jessica's for Alex. I was watching Parker play with all the other kids and I couldn't help but to think, oh my goodness my baby will be 2 before I know it. Where did my baby go? I am sure its something everyone always hears but you truly dont know what it means until you have a child of your own. I remember how emotional I was over his 1st birthday..am I going to be like that with every birthday? He is just growing into such a handsome lil man. He's at a "perfect" stage so to say, because he can tell me in one way or another what he wants and it doesn't take 2 hours to pack him up and make sure I have everything like the bottle,formula,extra clothes, tons of diapers and spit up rags...the list went on forever when I had to take him out. Now I just make sure I have a sippy cup, diapers, wipes, a change of clothes and some snacks! I couldn't wait for him to get older when he was a baby but now I want the tables turned..I guess I am just not content either way! There is so much to look forward to so I have to take it all in stride because weather I want to believe it or not my little man won't be so little much longer.

Busy Busy!

So technically I never posted yesterday but its 12:16am and I am just getting to the computer! This morning we got together with some mommy friends and played at the gym then we hit up Chuck E Cheese with Deanna and Peyton. After Jessica asked me to meet her and do some chit chatting then I had to find my class at the new campus I was freaking out about it but I did make it to the right class! After I found the class Parker and I came home, napped for an hour then he went to grandmas and I went to class! That wasn't the end to the day but all the details..well there just details, nothing exciting!
I really dont know if this is what blogs are really for...but until I get the hang of it I suppose you'll be getting a run down of our day! So I am off to bed and will start another day with my adorable lil man!

Another lazy day!

Well I havent started my new goal out very well since I forgot to blog yesterday! Not to much happened, just another lazy day at the house. Today was pretty much the same, I had some school work to do and Parker destroyed his room again..not sure why I even pick it up anymore! Hoping to get out of the house tomorrow so this lil boy can get some of this energy out of him!
Parker has been doing very good with his speech lately, hes actually trying to repeat things and if he can't he will atleast do the first sound of the word like milk he cant say so he'll say MMM. His new thing is to come to me, grab my pants and say UP! I love how he's about to communicate more with me, makes life just a little easier! I have moved him back to his room and its going on like week 3 but he still cry's himself to sleep, it breaks my heart but sleeping with mommy just wasn't working out! Tonight is my first night back to class so we will be out of route again..poor guy cant catch a break!
So I am off to get him and myself ready, he'll be going to grandma's tonight until I am out of class at 9:40pm then I will pick him up!

new year and a new me

So the past year I have made goals for myself and have not only impressed myself but those around me. I have lost 34 pounds and working on losing 34 more pounds and I have gone back to school in order to better myself for my family. With this semester I am taking comp 1, so my plan is to write more in my blog to help with my class. I always love killing two birds with one stone! Parker has changed into such a little person and such a personality. He is doing so much better with his speech since we have been getting help, not to mention the help my in laws have given him. 09 wasnt my best year but we are suppose to learn for our mistakes so to say right? So here's to a new year and a new me! From today on my goal is to blog once a day, even it doesnt seem worth blogging about I am going to do it!!!

Here's to 2010!!!

New stuff

The last time I posted it was about having a part time walker, well it only took him a few days to be a full blown, running, climbing fool!!! He got his first black eye from trying to climb up some toys, then got bit by the dog because he was tormenting him. I kept pulling Parker back but he went right back to the dog, it wasnt a very bad bite but I think it scared him he doesnt go around scooter to much now. He is cutting his top right molar and another tooth on the bottom so its been miserable lately. I just dont know why babies arent born with teeth, they are in the womb for almost 40weeks, depending on the baby why cant they be born with teeth. He doesnt listen to a thing you tell him, I am sure thats normal but man does he know how to test the limits! Hes just getting us use to the whole terrible 2's I suppose!!! His vocab is getting bigger and bigger, its so cute! Here are some recent pictures of my lil man! Hope you enjoy

He started walkin on his own!!!

well i think we finally have a part time walker!!! He doesnt do it much and I usually have to pick him up to stand on his feet but its a start! I may not have a 2year old crawler after all!!!

We're making progress!!!

Parker is FINALLY coming around to trying more things. Today I got him to try chicken nuggets and so far hes been just eattin away at them! We are slowly switching to whole milk. So far hes getting 2oz whole milk 4oz formula, I am adding an oz a week to get him use to it, so next week we'll do half an half. This just means my lil man is growing so quickly!! He's got such a personality now its cute and drives me nuts sometimes! He is learning how far he can push mommy and daddy's buttons lately..not so much fun! Last night he was smashing his crackers and throwing them on the ground, Robert told him no so what does Parker do? Looks right at his daddy with another cracker in hand, smashes it and drops it on the floor... Hes going to be a hand full to say the least. I blame the nurse after I had him because she said hes gonna be a handfull!!!! His new favorite thing to do is to throw something at scooter and laugh when scooter runs away from the object he threw. He also likes to pick scooter up by his neck and drag him around, my poor dog! Scooter could care less he just sits there and takes it. Parker is still not walking, I cant even "help him" he wants NOTHING to do with it, I swear I am going to have a crawling 2year old. I've tried holding his hand and walking with him and he screams and drops to his knee. I try putting him out in front of me and having him walk to me, this works 30% of the time! I really dont know how else to "teach/show him out to walk".
On a mommy note, I start college on May 18th for my RN and I've lost 9pounds and 13inches since I joined shapes 2months ago!I've been really lacking the gym lately and need to get back before I gain all my weight back! Heres some new pictures of Parker from our Bush Gardens trip 2weekends ago!

need a good laugh?

I ment to post this yesterday but never got around to it. I've been watching my friend Andrea's lil boy monday,wed,and only suppose to be friday but yesterday she got called in so I watched him for a few hours. Parker DOES NOT like to share his mommy or his toys. He's bitten Michael,pushed him, pulled his hair,shoved him into the couch and takes EVERYTHING away from him even if Parker was across the room when Micheal picked it up to play. Thank goodness Micheal doesnt throw a fit because all I would hear all day is whinning. I keep telling Robert this means Parker doesnt want to be a big brother :) and we all know mommy is okay with that but Robert says he'll learn! So how do you or do you even punish a 13month old? I always pick him up and look him right in the eye and tell him what he did wrong and how thats not nice. Not sure I am getting through though. Its hard to keep a straight face sometimes and when I do cave in and smile he thinks its okay.

Ok anyway back to the whole laughing thing yesterday morning Parker was playing in the hall way with his bath toys, I had left the closet we keep them in open for some reason. He started fussing and I couldn't figure out why thought maybe the dog was taking something away so I went to see what was going on and this is what I found



yes that would be my son stuck in his easter bucket...how he managed to do that I will never know but I laughed to hard I almost peed myself!!! Hope you got a good laugh too!!!

Easter

We had a great day. Easter morning we went to Robert's moms for breakfast and then we headed to my moms for easter dinner. We had an egg hunt for the kids and the food was GREAT!! Parker went into the pool with his daddy, it was warm outside but the pool water was still I little to cold, poor baby's lips turned blue! I had my mom take some pictures of us because we yet to have one of those and the baby is a year old!!! I ended up having to go into work at 4pm, so that sucked but it was only for 3hours so not to bad. I cant wait till next year I am sure parker will be more into it then!! Here are some pictures from easter.

Just another day

We've been spending a lot of time with Jess and the boys. Shes got a lot going on with her pregnancy and all the pain she's in so I try and help out as often as possible. I remember how much pain I was in but I had no kids to worry about and I remember all the help I had going through this so I just want to be there for her and the boys. I am looking forward to seeing the new lil addition to the family and I know Jess is ready for him to be out already! We've got a baby shower to plan and a room to decorate so theres lots to do and time is fastly running away! We took the boys to a egg hunt last saturday at Largo Mall and they even got to see Daddy before we left, well Alex and Zach's daddy! It was fun and we got some pictures, then when we were going back to the apartment we seen Largo Central Park was going something with those huge inflatables and Alex just loves them, zach not so much. So we got them something to eat and headed back to the park, we stay as long as possible. Once I seen Alex slowing down I knew it was time to head home, so we did and let me tell you those boys well with the exception of mine were fast asleep as soon as we got into the apartment!
So here are some more pictures from our adventure with Jess, Alex and Zach

Parker's 1 year pictures

Getting Better

Parker must of known I was talking about all this because the next day he was showing more interest in food and actually allowing me to give him some things. He ate an entire grilled cheese sandwich, I've even gotten him to try PB&J sandwiches and he likes them! So I guess i just have to keep trying, the main thing I am concerned about is him not eating meat. He doesnt eat eggs and I am not sure hes getting enough protein. I just hope within the next few months I can get him to eat better!