The Joys of Motherhood

R I P Caylee Marie Anthony

2011-07-06T00:52:00.002-04:00

The Case against Casey Anthony has ended…or has it? I know everyone is upset because she got away but look at it from the jury’s stand point, they had LAWS to follow, do I think they wanted to convict her, probably, since most were parents and grandparents but we can’t go off emotion. Which this case was entirely full of, emotion! Do I think it’s right this little girl lost her life to someone who was suppose to protect and provide for her? NO. I could NOT imagine, well let me back up yes I can. I went through post partum so bad with Parker, I didn’t want anything to do with him. Even though I gave birth to him, I didn’t feel like his mother, I honestly felt like my life was over like there was no point to do anything anymore. I would ignore him crying, and hope my husband would hear, and every time he cried I cried a little harder. It’s been 3 years since I’ve had Parker, and I still struggle with it. I love my son and would never do anything to hurt him, but I, unfortunately, know what’s it’s like to not want to be a mother. Mothers are held to such a high standard and I get it I do, BUT let not forget all the hormones that change, how the body changes, and how a mothers world is turned upside down by this tiny little individual who is relying solely on you to protect, and provide for. That’s A LOT for one person,, and when you throw in not having support..well it makes it harder. Not everyone can be a Mrs. Jones so to say, moms are humans believe it or not. I think if Cayle’s body was found earlier than 6months it would have been a different verdict but the fact is there was not much proof. There was no beyond a reasonable doubt she did it. There was no toxicology to show Casey did or didn’t drug her child, we know there was no broken bones because that is all that was left of the poor little child. I think the state of Florida did the best it could with that it had in its hands. It would have been morally wrong if they had gone off emotions, It was their duty to up hold the law and that’s not always pretty. I mean I know I didn’t want to be a mom but I could never go 31days without seeing my child or knowing where she was. And Ashton had a good point, Casey was really good at making up lies on the spot. And I have to agree with him when he said if the remains of that little girl had not been found she would still be there. No one but Cayle, the person who killed her and the good lord above know what truly happened. Casey may not be in jail physically after Thursday but she will forever be in her own prison. And the whole thing about her being molested..they said that’s why she lied? Come on, there are so many people that have been molested and didn’t do that, yes I know everyone is different but how in the world do you face your father and brother now. You told the ENTIRE world you were molested by both of them but yet they showed support by being at the trial for you? I know one thing for sure she’s a selfish person, but how did she get that way? No one is innocent except that poor baby girl. Although I do not agree with the verdict I can’t sit here and say I am ashamed of being a Pinellas county resident, they had to follow the law, plain and simple.

Becoming a consultant!

2011-06-29T02:07:00.001-04:00

So today I signed up for Scentsy to be a consultant and sell their warmers and other things, I have to say I am beyond excited for this new adventure and cannot wait to see if and how well this takes off! For now here a link to my website to check things out, please don't hesitate to ask questions and keep in mind I just signed up so I am learning along with you!!
https://jenniferstoltenberg.scentsy.us/Home

Working on working out Wednesday!

2011-06-15T23:35:00.000-04:00

Gotta love my corny titles for the day right?!!? Well today I finally went and ran. Only did 2miles because I was starting to hurt. My doctor said I should be good by today but I didn't want to over do it. Had to return my heart rate monitor because it wont work :( I was sooooooo bummed.

Terrible Tuesday!

2011-06-14T22:28:00.000-04:00

I was looking forward to going running this morning..then I remembered I had class. After class I get a text from my SIL that I will be the most pissed off person when I get home...great I think. I come home and see the above library book ripped to shreds! I JUST PAID for the other one he lost..UGH and this time it was under my SIL's library card...EVEN better! I want a re-do..so I send Parker to his room with no T.V. for the rest of the night because of his poor choice, he and I both take a nap. Now What I should be doing is my CTAP paper for Ethics...but I seem to find so many other things to do!

Hopefully I can get my run on tomorrow and start my new Bob Harper workout dvd!!

Its almost been another whole year!!

2011-06-13T22:36:00.000-04:00

Well Parker has turned 3 and started school since I blogged last. Its been a CRAZY year that went by way way way to fast! He has grown so much just since going to school, his vocabulary is amazingly better even though he has a few choice words that a 3 year old should not say..thanks to daddy! I started blogging again because I am hoping to stick to it this time and to record my cont weight loss journey. I've come 30lbs and have 20more to go before my *Goal* weight. There will be pictures of Parker as well as an update on my weight loss.

The things I've learned in the last 2 years

2010-11-06T00:36:00.002-04:00

I now know why my mom did the things she did, here are a few I've come to realize

Going to the grocery store without Parker is my heaven but I spend more

Going to the bathroom is like having an audience Parker, the cat and Scooter

Telling Parker to pick up his toys is useless

I pick my battles or I'd do batty all day

Taking Naps with Parker is wonderful but I get nothing done during the day

Droping him off to mom's day out is awesome, but I miss him after an hour

Listening to him yell at scooter reminds me of myself

I truly know the meaning of theres no love like a mothers love

I do not think I can handle another child. I want to give him everything.

I might be bias but he is one cute kid with his mama's personality

The years go by much quicker with a child

I am thankful for my husband who does everything he can to make sure I dont have a job and I can get through school

Happy Birthday Parker

2010-03-07T22:45:00.001-05:00

When did he get so big?

2010-01-16T23:11:00.002-05:00

Yesterday we spent the morning with Deanna and Peyton then we had a party to go to at Jessica's for Alex. I was watching Parker play with all the other kids and I couldn't help but to think, oh my goodness my baby will be 2 before I know it. Where did my baby go? I am sure its something everyone always hears but you truly dont know what it means until you have a child of your own. I remember how emotional I was over his 1st birthday..am I going to be like that with every birthday? He is just growing into such a handsome lil man. He's at a "perfect" stage so to say, because he can tell me in one way or another what he wants and it doesn't take 2 hours to pack him up and make sure I have everything like the bottle,formula,extra clothes, tons of diapers and spit up rags...the list went on forever when I had to take him out. Now I just make sure I have a sippy cup, diapers, wipes, a change of clothes and some snacks! I couldn't wait for him to get older when he was a baby but now I want the tables turned..I guess I am just not content either way! There is so much to look forward to so I have to take it all in stride because weather I want to believe it or not my little man won't be so little much longer.

Busy Busy!

2010-01-15T00:16:00.002-05:00

So technically I never posted yesterday but its 12:16am and I am just getting to the computer! This morning we got together with some mommy friends and played at the gym then we hit up Chuck E Cheese with Deanna and Peyton. After Jessica asked me to meet her and do some chit chatting then I had to find my class at the new campus I was freaking out about it but I did make it to the right class! After I found the class Parker and I came home, napped for an hour then he went to grandmas and I went to class! That wasn't the end to the day but all the details..well there just details, nothing exciting!
I really dont know if this is what blogs are really for...but until I get the hang of it I suppose you'll be getting a run down of our day! So I am off to bed and will start another day with my adorable lil man!

Another lazy day!

2010-01-13T17:50:00.003-05:00

Well I havent started my new goal out very well since I forgot to blog yesterday! Not to much happened, just another lazy day at the house. Today was pretty much the same, I had some school work to do and Parker destroyed his room again..not sure why I even pick it up anymore! Hoping to get out of the house tomorrow so this lil boy can get some of this energy out of him!
Parker has been doing very good with his speech lately, hes actually trying to repeat things and if he can't he will atleast do the first sound of the word like milk he cant say so he'll say MMM. His new thing is to come to me, grab my pants and say UP! I love how he's about to communicate more with me, makes life just a little easier! I have moved him back to his room and its going on like week 3 but he still cry's himself to sleep, it breaks my heart but sleeping with mommy just wasn't working out! Tonight is my first night back to class so we will be out of route again..poor guy cant catch a break!
So I am off to get him and myself ready, he'll be going to grandma's tonight until I am out of class at 9:40pm then I will pick him up!

new year and a new me

2010-01-11T22:50:00.002-05:00

So the past year I have made goals for myself and have not only impressed myself but those around me. I have lost 34 pounds and working on losing 34 more pounds and I have gone back to school in order to better myself for my family. With this semester I am taking comp 1, so my plan is to write more in my blog to help with my class. I always love killing two birds with one stone! Parker has changed into such a little person and such a personality. He is doing so much better with his speech since we have been getting help, not to mention the help my in laws have given him. 09 wasnt my best year but we are suppose to learn for our mistakes so to say right? So here's to a new year and a new me! From today on my goal is to blog once a day, even it doesnt seem worth blogging about I am going to do it!!!

Here's to 2010!!!

New stuff

2009-06-28T18:46:00.003-04:00

The last time I posted it was about having a part time walker, well it only took him a few days to be a full blown, running, climbing fool!!! He got his first black eye from trying to climb up some toys, then got bit by the dog because he was tormenting him. I kept pulling Parker back but he went right back to the dog, it wasnt a very bad bite but I think it scared him he doesnt go around scooter to much now. He is cutting his top right molar and another tooth on the bottom so its been miserable lately. I just dont know why babies arent born with teeth, they are in the womb for almost 40weeks, depending on the baby why cant they be born with teeth. He doesnt listen to a thing you tell him, I am sure thats normal but man does he know how to test the limits! Hes just getting us use to the whole terrible 2's I suppose!!! His vocab is getting bigger and bigger, its so cute! Here are some recent pictures of my lil man! Hope you enjoy

He started walkin on his own!!!

2009-05-15T08:09:00.003-04:00

well i think we finally have a part time walker!!! He doesnt do it much and I usually have to pick him up to stand on his feet but its a start! I may not have a 2year old crawler after all!!!

We're making progress!!!

2009-05-05T12:19:00.003-04:00

Parker is FINALLY coming around to trying more things. Today I got him to try chicken nuggets and so far hes been just eattin away at them! We are slowly switching to whole milk. So far hes getting 2oz whole milk 4oz formula, I am adding an oz a week to get him use to it, so next week we'll do half an half. This just means my lil man is growing so quickly!! He's got such a personality now its cute and drives me nuts sometimes! He is learning how far he can push mommy and daddy's buttons lately..not so much fun! Last night he was smashing his crackers and throwing them on the ground, Robert told him no so what does Parker do? Looks right at his daddy with another cracker in hand, smashes it and drops it on the floor... Hes going to be a hand full to say the least. I blame the nurse after I had him because she said hes gonna be a handfull!!!! His new favorite thing to do is to throw something at scooter and laugh when scooter runs away from the object he threw. He also likes to pick scooter up by his neck and drag him around, my poor dog! Scooter could care less he just sits there and takes it. Parker is still not walking, I cant even "help him" he wants NOTHING to do with it, I swear I am going to have a crawling 2year old. I've tried holding his hand and walking with him and he screams and drops to his knee. I try putting him out in front of me and having him walk to me, this works 30% of the time! I really dont know how else to "teach/show him out to walk".
On a mommy note, I start college on May 18th for my RN and I've lost 9pounds and 13inches since I joined shapes 2months ago!I've been really lacking the gym lately and need to get back before I gain all my weight back! Heres some new pictures of Parker from our Bush Gardens trip 2weekends ago!

need a good laugh?

2009-04-24T12:56:00.005-04:00

I ment to post this yesterday but never got around to it. I've been watching my friend Andrea's lil boy monday,wed,and only suppose to be friday but yesterday she got called in so I watched him for a few hours. Parker DOES NOT like to share his mommy or his toys. He's bitten Michael,pushed him, pulled his hair,shoved him into the couch and takes EVERYTHING away from him even if Parker was across the room when Micheal picked it up to play. Thank goodness Micheal doesnt throw a fit because all I would hear all day is whinning. I keep telling Robert this means Parker doesnt want to be a big brother :) and we all know mommy is okay with that but Robert says he'll learn! So how do you or do you even punish a 13month old? I always pick him up and look him right in the eye and tell him what he did wrong and how thats not nice. Not sure I am getting through though. Its hard to keep a straight face sometimes and when I do cave in and smile he thinks its okay.

Ok anyway back to the whole laughing thing yesterday morning Parker was playing in the hall way with his bath toys, I had left the closet we keep them in open for some reason. He started fussing and I couldn't figure out why thought maybe the dog was taking something away so I went to see what was going on and this is what I found

yes that would be my son stuck in his easter bucket...how he managed to do that I will never know but I laughed to hard I almost peed myself!!! Hope you got a good laugh too!!!

Easter

2009-04-15T17:28:00.003-04:00

We had a great day. Easter morning we went to Robert's moms for breakfast and then we headed to my moms for easter dinner. We had an egg hunt for the kids and the food was GREAT!! Parker went into the pool with his daddy, it was warm outside but the pool water was still I little to cold, poor baby's lips turned blue! I had my mom take some pictures of us because we yet to have one of those and the baby is a year old!!! I ended up having to go into work at 4pm, so that sucked but it was only for 3hours so not to bad. I cant wait till next year I am sure parker will be more into it then!! Here are some pictures from easter.

Just another day

2009-04-08T10:58:00.003-04:00

We've been spending a lot of time with Jess and the boys. Shes got a lot going on with her pregnancy and all the pain she's in so I try and help out as often as possible. I remember how much pain I was in but I had no kids to worry about and I remember all the help I had going through this so I just want to be there for her and the boys. I am looking forward to seeing the new lil addition to the family and I know Jess is ready for him to be out already! We've got a baby shower to plan and a room to decorate so theres lots to do and time is fastly running away! We took the boys to a egg hunt last saturday at Largo Mall and they even got to see Daddy before we left, well Alex and Zach's daddy! It was fun and we got some pictures, then when we were going back to the apartment we seen Largo Central Park was going something with those huge inflatables and Alex just loves them, zach not so much. So we got them something to eat and headed back to the park, we stay as long as possible. Once I seen Alex slowing down I knew it was time to head home, so we did and let me tell you those boys well with the exception of mine were fast asleep as soon as we got into the apartment!
So here are some more pictures from our adventure with Jess, Alex and Zach

Parker's 1 year pictures

2009-04-03T10:54:00.003-04:00

Getting Better

2009-04-03T10:39:00.002-04:00

Parker must of known I was talking about all this because the next day he was showing more interest in food and actually allowing me to give him some things. He ate an entire grilled cheese sandwich, I've even gotten him to try PB&J sandwiches and he likes them! So I guess i just have to keep trying, the main thing I am concerned about is him not eating meat. He doesnt eat eggs and I am not sure hes getting enough protein. I just hope within the next few months I can get him to eat better!

The joys of a one year old

2009-03-26T22:10:00.002-04:00

Feeding has been the BIGGEST issue since my son was born. He couldn't have certain formula and we were ALWAYS changing it. We'll now we're on to "big" people food and this boy DOESNT like much. I cant even get him to try some stuff, he just plain turns his head and screams.... It is eatting away at me, i am so worried about him not getting enough food or to much of this not enough of that. He's still on his formula because lets face it the boy doesnt eat and I dont feel like hes getting enough vitamins and stuff so we're still truckin along with it. He doesnt get it as often just 3 bottles a day but this is atleast keeping me some what sain. I am scared to try whole milk because of all the issues we had with him spitting up, but I need to give in and try it. Then I worry he wont take the formula anymore and we're back to me worrying about not getting enough vitamins and nutrients. He wont eat any meats,no veggies, SOME fruit. I dont know where I went wrong? I have to have the worlds pickest eater. Some days he likes one thing, the next day he wont touch it. Should I just blend his food and try it that way?? If I do that I might as well by the baby food its the same damn thing! I am sure me freaking out about it, wont help him but I dont know where else to turn. I feel like I am the only one in the world with this problem but I know there are plenty of other mommies dealing with far worst things than I am.

So those are my thoughts, now that they are on "paper" maybe i can clear room to figure out how to get my son to atleast TRY new things.

My Baby is one

2009-03-22T08:55:00.004-04:00

Its been a long time since I've updated this thing, I guess I got so caught up with his birthday party, then we spent some time with Robert's dad's girlfriend while she was here, then Roberts grandparents were here, then I got a part time job..so things have been just short of CRAZY. Well his birthday party went great and for not having a nap all morning he did good and had no melt downs.
We went for his one year check up and he is 18lb 2oz and still 28.5 inches long. The doc said hes doing fine as far as development. He could use more weight on him and I swear I am tryin but this boy just wont gain any weight. I am hoping with him eating more "real" food he'll start gaining! WE havent tried milk yet because everything comes up so easly but I do need to try an ouce at a time. The doc doesnt want me doing rice milk because theres not enough fat in it which is what he needs for brain development.
We also got his 1year photos done and get them on the 31st so I am very excited about that. He's still not walking but standing on his own more and more so one day.
Here's some pictures from the Party and other random outings with Parker

Parker is turning one

2009-02-25T20:40:00.004-05:00

It doesnt seem real but in a little over a week my baby boy will be one years old. No one can truly understand the meaning of "time flies" like a mother, those are my feelings anyway. Even though this is bittersweet I love watching him grow into such a curious lil toddler, hes into everything, points and wants you to tell him "whats this." He will go on and on as long as your telling him what it is.I love that lil boy more than life itself and wouldn't have a clue as to what to do if he wasnt apart of my life. He's brought,joy,tears,stress,over whelming feelings but at the end of the day I love lookin in his crib just watching him sleep so peacefully..but I dont watch to long though cause he'll wake up, I've made that mistake ONCE! So on MArch 7th we'll decorate for the party,eat food,cut cake,watch him make a horrible mess for mommy to clean up, open presents and Thank everyone for coming out to share in such a wonderful moment of his life, then we'll come home and start another wonderful year with that beautiful lil man of mine. Lets see what he can get into this year!!

I made a montage for his 1st birthday and wanted to share it, dont forget to pause the slide under this one so you can hear the songs! Get ready for a long one, its like 12mins long but I promise you'll like it! Enjoy

Make video montages at www.OneTrueMedia.com

We're Back!

2009-02-10T13:48:00.002-05:00

We had such a great time visiting with Robert's family. We seen a TON of snow, got to go to Cabela's in West Virgina,took Parker sledding,built a snow man and had fun seeing everyone that we only get to see once a year! Theres some pictures from our trip. I have to say I am so happy to be home and cant wait to get back into our routine!

We will be back in a week!

2009-01-31T17:25:00.001-05:00

Well we are headed out in a little over 2hours. We planned on leaving sunday but thought leaving tonight would give us time to get there and not be rushed! We plan on stopping and see Uncle Butch so in about a week look for some pictures!

We're head to PA

2009-01-27T21:45:00.003-05:00

Ami Liked Parker so much he didn't look at the camera!

She was so nice!

Yesterday we got a phone call from Roberts mom telling us we needed to call his dad. I guess he hurt his leg pretty bad and was home alone because his girlfriend is here in Florida for 3weeks visiting some of her friends. Today he had his appt to see what exactly was wrong with his leg, he has water behind his knee and broke the bone behind it,dont know the name of the bone but thats the one he broke. So we decided now is probally the best time to go see him since he is off work and we know hes not going anywhere, because he cannot walk! We are leaving on Sunday night around Parker's bed time in hopes that he will sleep the whole way there until morning! We should be there sometime Monday. I am excited to go see everyone because its always nice seeing Family but am terrifed of the weather! We've never traveled up there during Jan/Feb which is when they get the most snow! I know or atleast hope Robert can handle the car during the drive, i will do most of the driving until virgina then its all him! We will also be visiting my Uncle Butch in Ohio because they are only 2hours away from Roberts dads house, so this will be a good trip..cross our fingers! I will be back with loads of pictures hopefully! From today until sunday its going to be getting everything ready and making sure I've got what we need for the trip!

I'll leave you with some pictures from the bike show this past weekend we went to for Roberts company, Ami James is a famous tattoo artist who has his own show on TLC, he was there and then there was a playmate that was there as well! They both loved Parker!

Heaven has 2 more angels

2009-01-22T10:50:00.003-05:00

This is a lil late but with the crazy things going on I had no time to sit and actually think of what I wanted to write. My friend Brandie has been apart of my life since the 2nd grade which means everyone in her family is like my extended family. Her grandmother passed away last thursday, this was so hard for me I lost a grandparent and even though she wasnt "blood" she was my grandma. I dont even want to think about when I really do lose one of my own. She had been in a nursing home for awhile after she suffered a stroke. Like Brandie said she was just tired of fighting. She was a tough lil cookie though, always doing for herself never wanting help from anyone so after this happened she felt helpless and her freedom was taken away. I can only imagine what that feels like. Even though shes out of her wheelchair and out of pain it was hard to say goodbye. Grandma was always writing poems and had a lot of them published in poem books, she wrote one not to long ago to her grandkids and it was read at the viewing, I wasn't there yet but walked in right after it was read to see everyone in tears. I eventually got a copy of it and of course I cried. After the funeral we went to the VFW where she was an actvie member for lunch and then after we went to Brandies aunts house to go through Grandma's things and get stuff out that they wanted to keep. John, who is Brandies dad told me I could go through the jewlery box and pick something out I wanted...I felt honored to be able to have a piece of grandma. Brandie and I use to play dress up with grandma's clothes then we use to put every single piece of her jewlery we could get on our body. There was a horse shoe pendent that I use to always wear so I took that and then there was a pearl necklase we use to wear alot and i took that. So your probally wondering who the 2nd person is who is in heaven. Brandie's sister sarah was 16 and a half weeks pregnant and the day grandma passed away, she miscarried her baby. I think grandma just didn't want to go alone. Sarah is young shes 18 and even though its a horrible event everything happens for a reason and it just wasnt her time to become a mom. So as the title says, Heaven has 2 more angels.

Here is the poem she wrote to her grandkids.
A Poem To My Grandchildren

You may be sad because I passed away
But you have made my life so happy in many a way

Keep my memory within your heart
Then we will never be apart

Remember the things we did together
Homework,studying for your test
So you would do your very best

I love you all so much
Grandma

10 months have flown by

2009-01-07T19:40:00.003-05:00

Today marks 10months of being a mommy, 10months of ups and downs, 10months of learning a new route just for Parker to throw something in the mix, 10months of formula changes,10months of dirty diapers,10months of figuring out whats wrong with nothing has worked. 10months of unconditional love from my lil man! Which means I will have a toddler on my hands before you know it, actually I think he is techinally a toddler already BUT i dont wanna hear that:) We are slowly making plans for his 1st birthday party and I am VERY excited just cant decide what I want for decorations, I REALLY like the john deer theme but I was lookin the other day and they now have a cowboy theme, SO maybe I should go with the cowboy and wait till next year for john deer?!! I am still not sure but I need to decide like NOW! I took pictures today because I've been trying to make sure I have up to date ones, its funny how as they get more mobile you dont have the camera around as much!

I am so blessed

2009-01-05T21:01:00.002-05:00

The titled should say enough in itself, but I feel the need to explain. Parker has not been the easiest baby, then again what is easy? He has giving us our fair share of sleepless nights and days of pulling my hair out, but we have it much easier than other out there. I am on cafemom and theres a wonderful momma name Jenna who has a daughter Lily who has CHD its a condition in her heart. She has had a rough 9months into this thing we call a world. She has had THREE count them THREE open heart surgerys and yes shes 9months old. I watched a video today of her 3rd open heart and i just sat here and cried like a lil baby, the tears seemed to be endless. Then the questioned started, why in the world do i get so upset with him, how could I think I had it hard? It makes me want to go and pick him up and just hold and squeeze him but we had a rough day and even though I love him he needs his sleep more. This little girl as her mom says is "a ticking time bomb" I could never imagine having to sit and watch your baby and know what to react to and what not to?Then what happens if you take it as nothing but something else happens? Oh my goodness I couldn't imagine it. Everyone knows how much I worry about lil things and always end up going to the hospital for..could you imagine what it would be like if I had this with Parker? My heart goes out to this family like no one would believe, Jenna is such an amazing women she not only has lily. She's got 2 older boys to take care of. I wanted to share this slide show with any and everyone who see's my blog and for people to be aware of CHD. There are no phamplets in the doctors office for this, there isnt much and like Jenna said in her slide show she was "lucky" to have caught it so soon. Here is the slide
http://www.onetruemedia.com/otm_site/view_shared?p=7aac91b14634213307c7bf&skin_id=1705&utm_source=otm&utm_medium=text_url
I couldn't figure out how to put it so that it would show up on the page so click the link. GRAB a tissue because this is a tear jerker to say the least.

Welcome 2009

2009-01-03T20:25:00.005-05:00

I hope everyone had a wonderful new year! We had a blast at Aunt Renee's just wish my momma would of been there, but it is a far drive to be going back at midnight so maybe next year?! Parker got this toy that he walks behind and hes been doing really good with it. Today I got him walking with it and he STOOD by HIMSELF for a few seconds! I was so excited I couldn't believe it! He's getting so damn cute and so big..why did I have to wish it away? March is slowly approaching and my baby will be ONE! However there are many more first to come and I have to say I am looking forward to having those with my lil man! Here is the video from today! Enjoy.

Opps some pictures first!

see them teeth!?!?!

The year is almost over

2008-12-31T09:07:00.003-05:00

I hope everyone had a wonderful christmas, I know we did! Santa was very good to us and we never even expected it! Parker got LOADS of toys and loved playing with the paper AFTER it was off the presents! So now its time to say goodbye to 2008 and ring in the new year. This year was def and different one than I've ever experienced! I started the new year in the hospital because lil parker decided he wanted to block mommy's kidney from being able to empty and we were there for a week before everything was ironed out. Then it was miserable the last 10weeks of my pregnancy because of the stent I had put it, I hope to never go through that again. Then came March 7 2008 when my whole world was turned upside down in a good way. My lil baby boy made his grand entrance. From then on out we had many many first, the first time rolling over,eatting cereal,trying baby food,crawling,and the list goes on and on. Iam very thankful for my wonderful mother, i had no idea where I would be without her, shes been there when all my chips feel and I need someone to help pick them up.Shes shown me how to be a great mom and i only hope to be as good as she is one day.There were so many people who made a differene in my life this year and I will never forget them for that. There were many weddings I attended this year, a life long friend, my lovely cousin amber,and another childhood friend. I am greatful they wanted me to be apart of there beautiful day. I became apart of an AWESOME mommies group and am thankful for all the wonderful mommies I met. They have helped this transtion into motherhood just a lil easier.Its nice knowing there are other mommies going through or have been through some of the stuggles we had over the past 9months! This year seemed to past by so fast but i guess thats what happens when you become a mommy, you forget to look at the calendar and instead spend time with your family and watch them grow into the person you hoped they will be!
We are ringing in the New Year at my Aunt Renee's which is what we've done the past 3 years and I am very excited about it. Its nice to have family around to bring in a whole new year.

So Happy New Year to Everyone and be safe!!

Its almost christmas!!!

2008-12-20T08:24:00.005-05:00

We got Parker's 9month pictures back on friday and I am so excited! I also cant believe how much he's changed since his 6month pictures! We did get a couple of him for christmas and he did so good this time. Nothing new and exciting has happened since our wonderful boat trip on monday. Except that my brother will be home on the 23!! He's been gone for what seems like FOREVER! So here are Parker's pictures!

Oh my

2008-12-15T22:50:00.002-05:00

Today we decided to go on the boat since neither me,the hubby or uncle jerry had been on since before uncle jerry's surgery which i believe was 2months ago.This morning didn't start out good, first we couldn't find the wire to hook up the lights for the trailer, so it took us what seemed like forever to just decided to put the lights a lil closer to the truck, then we get to the boat ramp and the boat is almost off the trailer when it wouldn't start, finally it gets started and robert was trying to back it up to get it completely off the trailer and uncle jerry starts to take off with the boat still attached, motor running and all. once we got the boat off and everything together we were leaving the dock with uncle jerry seen his phone was missing, of course being the negative nancy he is he thought for sure it was in the water floating, it wasn't then he went ot the truck and there it sat on the seat of the truck.Ok so I am thinking hopefully it gets better, as we're leaving i seen the coast guard hilacoper go over us, and I am thinking great this is not going ot be a good day. We finally get somewhere we can do some fishing and I only got 2bites and no one else got anything so we moved, nothing, we moved again, nothing but we didn't get to see a school of dolphin's playing and this is when everything went wrong. My lovely husband thinks hey lets get closer to the dolphin they HAVE to be eating fish over there so we head over that way and i can start to see the bottom and I told him hunny back up we're going to get stuck, oh no we arent its okay.....THEN what happens? We stop moving and we are stuck. He gets into the water to push the boat but it wasn't going anywhere fast so instead he grabs his fishing pole to do some fishing meanwhile me and uncle jerry are on the boat. I need to add none of us where upset it was actually quite funny to everyone. once robert figured out he wasn't catching anything he came back to get the boat moving some more, and finally we were un-stuck, so we start to go and then uncle jerry loses his hat..great so we go back to get it and the water was FREZZING by the way and he put it back on his head! We tried a few more spots and NOTHING so we called it a day and came in, thankfully nothing bad happened from that point on, but I have to say it was the worst experience i've had so far on the boat!!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kXUC5XQJNks
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yq7oqYqLx3Q
There are the links to the video I took from today, watch for the dolphin's next to Robert while hes fishing in the 2nd one!! Happy viewing

Being to feel like Christmas.

2008-12-14T21:51:00.003-05:00

Whoa its been a week since I have posted anything..opps! Things have been crazy busy around here with all my mommy group meetings and christmas shopping then theres Parker with his teething! We went to the Parade yesterday night and Parker was supprisly good! The fire trucks and race cars did scare him a lil. But he got lots of beads and we even seen my cousin Courtney..its so hard to believe shes growing up, I remember the day my aunt had her like it was yesterday and now shes talking about boys and school...YIKES!:) I love her to pieces!!

We also went by my childhood home, the house was in forecloser for the longest time and someone finally bought it. I didn't know this till we pulled up because I had planned on parking at the old house then walking to the Parade, so I did the next best thing and parked in front of my old neighbor's house. Betty got to see Parker and couldn't get over how precious he was! She says they are a young couple that bought the home and they are very nice, but it was VERY hard knowing someone else is laying down at night in the same home I grew up in. Its the home all my firsts happened, its the place my brother and I use to fight like cats and dogs because we shared a room,its the place I got my first bike for christmas,the place that i fell through the deck while dad was building a new one and my brother felt so bad that he brought me one of his favorite cars to make me feel better,the place i made my very first friendships in,the place where I learned how to drive a stick shift, its the place that so many memories were made, ones that I will never forget no matter how old I get or how many kids I have. I use to get upset because we always lived in the same house growing up, I always wanted to move somewhere else but now I completely understand why my dad made sure we were in the same place for so long. I can only hope I can find a place where my family will grow up and have all those memories like I have.

On to other happier things, tonight we went to Clearwater's Winter Wonderland. It was nice but Parker would of enjoyed it better in oh say 5years!:) They had a playgroud,bouncy houses, there was decorating cookies with mrs.claus,pictures with santa,a petting zoo (which he petted a duck and was terrifed of the pony),pony rides and some live entertainment. We didn't stay long because well lets face it there wasnt much for us to do. So we went to Largo Central Park they had their lights on display so we walked around, Parker loved all the sights and sounds! Then it was on home because he was getting cranky! Tomorrow we are going on the boat, we havent been on in forever so I am looking very forward to it! Parker will stay with his grandma roberts and then hopefully we can get back in time for me to head up to the hospital so I can see my sister while shes there for some tests! hopefully it wont be another week before I post!!

Thanks for everyone who reads this, even you Aunt Renee!!!

Mom had me watch a slide show tonight with all kinds of pictures and she had ones of Parker when he was only days old, both me and robert cried as we watched it... Cant believe hes getting so big so fast!

Post Surgery Day 2

2008-12-07T20:46:00.003-05:00

Things were MUCH better today! HE woke up in a good mood and stayed in a good mood! HE got cranky around 5pm but it was close to his bed time so thats reasonable! We went to see Santa today but he wasnt having it he was scared to death of that man! Then they wanted me to pay 24 for a picture he didnt even smile in...geez people! After that adventure we went to Candy Cane Lane, its a neighborhood where most of the houses are lite up and decorated nice, there was one house that had the lights going to the sound of music! IT was pretty neat! Tomorrow we get his 9month pictures taken. I cant believe its been 9months today! This time 9months ago he was about 2hours old!!!! Amazing how time flies!!!

Post Surgery

2008-12-06T21:56:00.004-05:00

Today was rough, I wont lie but my lil man pulled through. This morning I woke up to him talking to the lil frog in his play pen (he stayed in my room last night I was parriod about his breathing) and I thought today is going to be good. That thought got thrown out the window 2o mins later! So I gave him some meds and some breakfast and the lil man wasnt happy still, so I called on my wonderful mommy and told her we were on our way to visit with grandma! Of course she loved the idea and so did Ryleigh but really mommy was wanting someone else to help with the crankness of Parker..shh dont tell her! The day seemed to go by faster while I was there probally cause I wasnt watching the clock and figuring out how long till Robert got home. Towards the end of the night he was getting better but I know today and tomorrow are going to be the worst of days and hopefully after that I will see the light at the end of this long dark tunnel! He is having a hard time figuring out how to breath and enjoy his food at the same time, he also has a hard time latching on to the bottle with formula, if there is pedilite in it he seems to do good but after a few swallow of the formula he screams. Hopefully it will pass, I am thinking its because his throat is still pretty sore. He also had red eyes, they almost looked brused but we're thinking it was from having the atneiods takin out. So heres to hoping tomorrow is better. The poor lil guy didnt have nearly as much formula as he normally has but he had some wet diapers so we know hes highdrated!

Parker's Surgery

2008-12-05T19:29:00.003-05:00

My lil man was a trooper but it was THE HARDEST thing I have gone through so far. The worse part was letting him go back with the nurses for the surgery, he could of cared less but I cried like a lil baby. They put tubes in his ears,took his atneoids out,checked for some breathing problem, and took a biopsy for reflux. After surgery the nurses said he was FULL of mucus, the one nurse said she was pullin boogies out that had their own zip code... Poor guy! We ended up being there 12hours because after everything was said and done he was horribly congested and wasnt taking any fluid so they hooked him up to an IV because he hadnt peed in almost 7hours. Once the fluids got flowing and they gave him some more pain meds he was getting better, they also gave him affrin nose drops to help dry him out and those helped a lot, he isnt breathing nearly as bad as he was when he first got out. I was so lost on what to do with him, all he wanted was to be held by me, no one else just me, so thats what i did. We had a lil problem with his first IV it came unhooked from the fluid but the site was okay so they had to flush it and he didnt like that much! Other than that he slept the whole day it seemed and its now 7:18 and hes down again. Oh I forgot he also ate some pudding,only drank maybe 3ounces all day and had some jello before he came home, once he got home we gave him some cereal and more pedilite so I think thats why he went down so early,his belly is finally full after not being able to eat anything after 5:30 this morning! I took some pic to document for his baby book so i'll share with you! I also want to add I had a WONDERFUL support system today, My husband along with my mother in law, sister in law, Best Friend, and both my Parents, if it wasnt for them I dont know how I would of gotten through the day! Thank you mom I love and appreciate EVERYTHING you do for me!

After Surgery in recovery

I had to share

2008-12-02T21:59:00.002-05:00

I am apart of Cafemom and I am in a march mommies group there are a ton of us in the group but only a hand ful who actually participate in the group. There is one mom, Chels she is freaking hillarious she has a 4year old and then her march baby, her 4year old his name is Declan always does something funny for his mommy to share with the group and I just have to share this story because I am STILL Laughing so hard i could pee myself

Oh, and just for kicks here's a Declan story. This morning I found him stark naked, standing with one foot on each side of the toilet seat. I told him to sit down and couldn't resist asking why.
"No, I can't," he replied. "I'm a birdie. I gotta stand up."
Ok, I guess that makes sense if you're a bird. I stepped out of the bathroom to grab Bryan's attention, because you just have to share a scene like that. All of a sudden I heard a thunk followed by crying.
The poor little birdie slipped and racked his bird nuts on the edge of the seat. And just so I wasn't left out, there was a nice smear of poo on the rim where he landed.
=D

shes great! anytime i need a good laugh i just read one of her stories!
Hope you got a chuckle out of it, lord knows i did! I tried telling robert the story but was laughin to hard so he got pissed at me....he must be getting his period!

2 more teeth!!!!

2008-12-02T21:19:00.003-05:00

Today while I was visiting with my mom, I noticed when Parker was laying down that he has 2 teeth coming in!! I kept feeling in his mouth because my mother in law said they were coming in but I didn't see anything but today I seen them both! which would explain why hes been such a demin child! And I noticed he chews on any and EVERYTHING he didn't do that before, but seriously he would chew on his diaper i let him play with while changing his old diaper, he would grab anything he could and chew on it, my pants...anything so I had a feeling he was but couldn't feel them. So now we are dealing with 2 teeth coming in and then his surgery on friday:( Not going to be much fun thats for sure. So I will post pictures of his teeth and some pictures of him with nana and pa today as well! Heres to hoping this weekend isnt horrible!!!!

Oh my!!

2008-11-29T20:41:00.003-05:00

So Robert and I went out on black friday! We went for the first time last year while we were visiting his dad because we figured it was such a small town it couldn't be that bad, and it really wasnt. So we were debating on weather to go this year or not because we are home and people here are CRAZY! We got up at 3:30am to head out to the mall at old navy for the free mp3 player with a $20 purchase and we ended up getting two! When we got to the mall around 3:45 it wasnt that bad I think we were like back 10-15people but when it got closer to 5am that line got long! Then we headed over to toys r us for 2 toys for Parker and WHOA the line was all the way through the store BUT they were def prepared all the employees knew what was going on and they were watching for cutters in line, it did take me an hour to get through the line but it didn't seem like that it kept moving at a decent pace and anyone who knows me knows I make friends anywhere and of course I was talking to pretty much everyone in line with me! so that made it go quick to, the lady who was ahead of me just had a baby NINE days before and she looked great! When she told me that I was SHOCKED!After that mad house I thought I'd go to walmart because they had good prices on their jeans and got 2 pairs for me and a pair for my sister but they were out of jeans for Robert.Even though I was tired as all get out I managed to head to Kmart to see if they had the activity table for Parker but the lady said they only had 2 on hand...TWO? I know its black friday but dang really just TWO? I thought I did really well, I pretty much got everything I wanted to get except the table but maybe they will have another sale!:)

I didn't find these boots on my mission friday but I found them tonight and they are SOOOOOOOOOOO cute I cant wait to do a photo shoot with them!!!

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!

2008-11-27T10:48:00.002-05:00

Today I always tend to remember thanksgiving when I was younger!We always had a week off of school then we would go to Grandma linda's for dinner and spend the day with family everywhere! I remember Aunt Renee and Aunt Lauren calling to wish us a happy thanksgiving and mom making some kind of dish to share at grandma's! Oh how things def change as the years come and go! Our family has grown so much over the years, new faces added to the mix and new babies coming all the time! This is Parker's first thanksgiving and even though he wont remember I will and I am very thankful for him and for the fact that he is a happy baby for the most part and hes brought a lot of joy into my life! I never knew I could love someone so much until he came into the world! I hope everyone has a wonderful day and is thankful for everyone in their life!!!

Parker's First Haircut

2008-11-21T21:39:00.003-05:00

So we finally got his haircut, it was bitter sweet! His hair was long on top because he has hair like his mommy, I had a mohawk when I was a baby and so does mr.parker but it looks better on him than it did me! He doesnt look like my baby anymore hes looking more like a toddler! I cant believe hes going to be a toddler already, it seems like not to long ago we were welcoming him into the world! We got his haircut because we have christmas pictures and his 9month pictures coming up as well. A friend of mine did it for us and she did a good job! here are some pictures!

this was the best picture i could get of him looking up, as u can see he liked playing with the barbie doll head, shhh dont tell his daddy! Oh and there are his new shoes!

Tis the Season

2008-11-18T22:14:00.004-05:00

Today was the first day Parker and I have been able to get out of the house because neither one of us was sick! Then we did a lil photo shoot, he wasnt very cooperative BUT I did get some good ones! here they are!

2Days in a row with my husband!

2008-11-17T23:08:00.004-05:00

MY husband just recently quit one job and went to another that he was working at on the weekends. So he went from working 6days to working 7days for the past 2weeks. It has been a VERY long 2weeks. I guess I get use to having him home by 4pm and helping with the night procedures so for 2weeks it was only Parker and Mommy until 6pm and Parker is usually in bed by 7pm so needless to say daddy missed Parker! So I had all day yesterday and all day today with my husband and my son.It would of been nice if I didnt have a gall bladder attack and end up in the ER 4hours for them to tell me they cant take it out because there is no stones blocking the gall bladder.GRRRRRRR And I cant even get insurance because its pre-exsiting:( So I have ot wait until it does get blocked then hopefully they will take it out.Until then I have to go on a non-fat diet.Guess I am going to HAVE to lose weight because I can have anything fried, I cant even have more than 3eggs A WEEK! No whole or 2%milk, only 6oz of meat a day and it has to be lean and the list goes on and one!!!!!! But once I got caught up on sleep I got the rest of christmas put up, and got the house cleaned, dishes done,bottles clean and spend time with my lil man! I will have pictures up tomorrow because I am going to take them for christmas cards so be on the lookout! OK we'll I am heading off to bed.

This was taken awhile back but its all my "babies" none of them are very far,the other day they were all in the bathroom with me...YIKES welcome to motherhood

Week full of sickness

2008-11-15T21:23:00.005-05:00

So we've been home all week because Parker has come down with yet ANOTHER ear infection. For 2months hes had one, I swear we live at the Doc office! So my doc refered us to an Ear Nose and Throat doc. We have an apt on Wednesday at 9:30am for a hearing test and then to check his ears at 9:45am. My husband had tubes in his ears a couple times so he knows the pain poor lil parker is going to go through so I told him he HAS to be there! I've gotten lucky the past 2months without getting sick when Parker did but I didn't miss it this time:( ITs not to bad just a cough and a scratching voice! Before we got sick we went to see my friend Jessie she has a son name Devin, he is 2months younger than Parker but you couldn't tell they look the same age! I just cant believe how much Devin has changed from the last time I seen him. He has 2teeth and 2 more coming in! Parker still has just the 2bottom ones!!We also got Parker his first pair of Stride Rite shoes yesterday I will have to take pictures with them on and put them up but for now here are some pictures from when we visited Jess and Devin!

Parker's First Road Trip

2008-11-11T16:50:00.008-05:00

Yesterday my mother in law, sister in law, husband, parker and I headed to Georgia to see Parker's Great Mema. The trip up there was okay and thank goodness it was only 3 1/2 hours long but the trip home wasnt so good, poor lil guy was soo sick and come to find out he has YET ANOTHER ear infection. My doc refered us to an ear nose and throat doctor who might have to put tubes in his ears, my husband had this done when he was little a couple times and I have a feeling we will go through this a few more times! He's just so miserable today, he doesnt want to drink any formula so I've been giving him more jar food and he's been drinking pedilite so lets hope this passes soon!! Here are some pictures from our travels

Parker and Great Mema

The hubby,me,Great Mema,Parker,Grandpa Roberts and Grandma Roberts

Alexandra and Emily

Zach and Parker.

Zach said he wanted his mommy to have another baby!!!

p.s see how parker is pulling at his ear in every photo? Poor lil man

Parker is 8months old!

2008-11-08T20:14:00.003-05:00

Where or where does the time go? When Parker first came into the world it was a hard adjustment for mommy and I SWORE I wouldn't have anymore this was it for me. But seeing him today and all his accpolishment and him growing like he is makes me forget all those sleepless nights,not knowing how to sooth a fussying baby, how to get into the car along with everything needed without having a panic attack, being scare of being home alone with him and no one to ask questions to! Yep you forget all that and think maybe just one more!!

Parker LOVES cookies!

2008-11-08T16:07:00.006-05:00

This smile melts my heart!!!!

I bought these things call biter biscuts awhile back thinking he would like them for teething he had no interest in them AT ALL! But I kept putting them in front of him just to see if he liked it and sure enough, this time he LOVED them!! Here are some pictures from our experience

Halloween

2008-11-03T21:51:00.003-05:00

This was another long weekend! On Thursday my dog was acting really weird so on friday morning I called the vet and took him in and they informed me he had a ruptured anal glan! So he had to go in for surgery right away we were suppose to go to my moms for Halloween but I couldn't get scooter till 5pm and it wouldn't of been worth going up there because by the time we would of gotten there it would of been dark! So instead we went to supprise my mother in law at her work to see Parker. I didn't think Parker needed to go trick or treating because hes only 7months old! If we had any other kids he would of gone but it seemed silly to me plus theres no need to candy in this house hold!!! On sat we went go visit with my Aunt Tami in Tampa it was nice seeing everyone again, even though we all live so close we have to drive all the way to Tampa to see everyone....oh well it was a nice and relaxing day! Sunday was spent relaxing from the last crazy 2days and a friend of mine wanted to get together to catch up so we went to applebees for drinks and some good old girl talk! Here are some pictures from this weekend!!!Ohh and we decorated grandma robert's christmas tree tonight! Early I know but we love christmas!!

Parker and Grandma Roberts

He LOVED the lights!! Christmas is going to be fun this year!

Pumpkin Carving

2008-10-29T20:45:00.003-04:00

We, well I decided I wanted to carve our Parker size pumpkin the other day. Daddy cut it open and said EEWW that stinks..I smelled it and I'll be darned, it smelt like a pumpkin! He sure can be a girl at times, he wanted nothing to do with removing the inside of it! Me on the other hand dug right in and had a good old time. It brough back memories of me and my brother carving pumpkins at the table with mom and dad, now i know why they always put newspaper down IT STAINS! His whole highchair is now a tint of orange!!!! I want Parker to be able to remember those memories as well obviously he wont remember this but I want to keep this going so he can remember as he gets older! So thank you mom for doing all the little things I dont think I'll ever forget! Here are some pictures from our carving!!!

Parker loves playing with paper but he hates stickers....

Mommy and Parker waiting while Daddy cut open the pumpkin.

Here mom let me help

Maybe I'll just play in the goop!

Hes going to be such a boy!!! Unlike his father who has girly tendency!

Mommy's lil goof ball!

The end result. I should of done two bottom teeth because thats all Parker has!!:P

Dad's and Hair Do's

2008-10-27T21:03:00.002-04:00

Tonight my husband has some wild bug up his butt and wanted to do Parkers hair....This is why men should NEVER be able to be around hair spray unless its for themselves. Lord help us if we have a daughter!

His daddy calls him Johnny Rocket because he crawls around the house pretty quickly

Busy Weekend

2008-10-27T13:59:00.002-04:00

I just couldn't seem to get on here for my blog all weekend. Friday was the surgery for my uncle and things went good. I had a girls night out with a few of the moms from my mommies group on friday night. Parker was still sick so I took him to the doctor on Sat and he still has a double ear infection so they gave him a shot of antibotics and he was miserable all afternoon. We had a wedding Sat night and it was on the beach with it being as windy as it was I knew there was no way Parker was going with me being miserable and in the wind with his ears so my mother in law took him for the night so I could enjoy the wedding! Sunday once Parker came home from Grandma's the 3 of us went grocery shoppin and just spent the day together and Parker was in a very good mood so we took advantage of it!! Its day 2 of the new meds and hes doing better but hes spitting up A LOT and its got lots of mucus in it...quite nasty thats for sure! He's also got a dry cough so not sure what thats about...gotta love the "winter" months. We might live in Florida but we still seem to get those nasty colds!!! So heres some pictures from this weekend.

The groom and the flower girl. (father and daughter)

The Bride and Her Brother who gave her away

The Grovers.

Cutting the cake!

Parker went to Grandma's!

2008-10-23T17:52:00.002-04:00

Today I took Parker to his grandmas because tomorrow I have to take my uncle for sugery and wouldn't have time to get the baby up,feed and packed for grandma's and to grandma's before we had to be to the hospital at 6am. The ride home was quiet but a lil to quite I kept looking in the rear view expecting to see him sleeping or hear him screaming at his carseat cause he is strapped in but instead I seen an empty back seat.... It made me try to think back to life before Parker when I was able to just up and go without worrying if I have a bottle,formula,diapers,wipes,food,a spoon,clothes incase he gets messy,bibs to keep his clothes clean oh yeah and dont forget the baby!!!! I remember the first time I went somewhere with him by myself it took me I kid you not almost an hour to get everything in the car and then to get him and me in there!! Then I was worried what do I do if he cries? Is he going to be good on the way there??What if he gets hungry..and it goes on and on! I didn't ever think it was going to get easy even though everyone kept saying its only going to get easier, now I can say yes they were all right, now I just grab 2 bags and the baby then we're out the door! Of course if I use anything while I am out I always replace it when we get home so I am not rushing around the next time we leave because you never know when your going to have to grab and go then hope everything is in the bag!! I have to say I am lost without my boy here with me, he was gone to his other grandma's all last weekend so I feel like I only have him part time... I cant wait to pick him up tomorrow night!! Thanks mom for watching him for me! I will see you tomorrow!

Parker and Ryan

2008-10-21T21:35:00.002-04:00

I am apart of a clearwater stay at home mommy group and have met some awesome mommies and babies! Lorraine just joined the group and I seen her son Ryan was the same age as Parker, we started to talk and today we got together at a park to let the boys get to know each other. They did really well, I think Parker is going to have a friend out of Ryan, not to mention Lorraine is a sweet person so it might be a good realtionship all around!!! here are some pictures from today

This was while we were waiting to meet them!

He liked the swing but wasn't to sure!!

Here is Ryan and Parker! Parker was more into the toys than pictures!

This is a good one of them!

Ryan sometimes used Parker to get up! LOL

We didn't even get out of the parking lot and lil man was passed out!!!

Its a new day in Tampa Bay!!!

2008-10-20T20:31:00.002-04:00

Not sure how many of you are MLB fans but our very own Tampa Bay Rays are headed to the World Series!!!!!! The hubby and I ran out to get shirts last night and no one had them...so this morning I went to the local walmart and got 2 for us, I looked for one in Parker size but all they had out was Buc's stuff! The City of St.Petesburg held a pep rally of sort! There was hair stylist giving out free Ray Hawks, we tried to get one for the hubby but the line was incredible long and it was getting to hot for the 3 of us, so that was a no go but we did enjoy ourselfs and Parker was good all night didnt start to get cranky till the end but it was past his bed time, however it is almost 9pm and the lil stinker is still up!!! heres some pictures from tonight

He was such a happy baby!!!!

We were in line for Ray Hawks but it didn't happen!

Our lovely Mascot Raymond

GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO RAYS!!!!

New Formula not so good

2008-10-19T22:18:00.003-04:00

Parker was at Grandma Roberts all weekend because friday I had a bacholrette party to go to and sat I had a horrible hangover and she said he spit up the formula more than the enfamil A.R so now I have to call the doctor tomorrow and find out whats going to happen next! This is so frustrating, I should of just left things alone. When we went to pick him up today he projectile vomited on his daddy:( I really hope they figure something out, we might just end up going back to the other formula because this doesnt seem to be working! So hopefully sometime this week we will have some answers!!!!

Our Trip to the GI Doctor

2008-10-16T20:05:00.002-04:00

Well we got up bright and early for a 8:15am apt. The apt went well I guess, they are yet again changing his formula and want him back on previcid they they want to see us again in 6weeks. Parker HATES this new formula its called nutraigum its for cow milk allergy, we dont know if he has it but this is one way to find out.He wouldn't take the bottle earlier so I called the doctor and they wanted me to do half n half between his old formula and his new one. On top of that hes getting antibotics! Poor lil man, hes so miserable you can tell just looking at him! I am really hoping this is going to work, I dont even want to think about whats would be next if this isn't it?!?!?! So tomorrow its another day of half n half then slowly getting more of the new stuff than the old stuff!

Untill next time, I am signing out!:)

Another wonderful day as a Mommy

2008-10-15T23:16:00.004-04:00

I was visiting my mom the other day and she was asking me why I havent update my blog..... I guess I spend to much time on Myspace so this blog is for you mom!!!

This morning when I woke up my son's nose was NASTY runny and he was really fussy so I thought I would call the doc. I told them what his symptoms were and they wanted me to bring him in to make sure it wasnt an ear infection, well it turned out to be a DOUBLE ear infection. I do feel horrible for him because I know how painful my ear infections are but I never understood the effects of having a 7month old with an ear infection!!! So hes in antibotics twice a day and tynoel every 4hours...gotta love this mommy life! Tomorrow we have a bright and early apt with a GI doctor about Parker's reflux, I am happy because this might give me an answer to his spitting up problem but nervous because there are a few test they might have to do that are going to be hard to deal with! One being the Probe test, they stick a tube down his nose into his throat and see how many times he refluxes he will be sedated for them to put in the tube and will be admited to the hospital for 23hours to monitor the reflux...we know he does reflux so I am not sure what else its going to tell us! We'll just have to wait and see! So untill next time...

Here is a picture from todays doctor visit, he has gained a whole pound since his last visit at 6months!!

How fast time flies.

2008-10-07T19:49:00.005-04:00

7 months ago right now my son was only an hour and ten mins old! Where in the world did the time go?! Since he has turn 7 months he has brought so much joy into my life and those around him, he is learning so much tooo fast! He is crawling all over the place,pulling up on things, he plays peek a book,he will wave bye bye and loves to get into things hes not suppose to! I know I kept saying I cant wait till hes mobile but now I wish he wasnt, to an extend, atleast now he can crawl into the kitchen and play when I am doing dishes without screaming cause he cant see me but then he likes to play in the dog bowl and play with the dirty dust pan and broom then he finds the dirtiest things to pick up...like dust bunnies?!?! Where and why does he pick those up? He's all boy thats for sure. I wouldn't have it any other way though. I love when I walk into a room his lil face lights up with joy and he does his O face likes he supprised to see you! He is def a happier baby because he can "do things on his own." He is very strong willed thats for sure, if he wants something he will do anything to get it, even if it means climbing over you and a mounatin he will get to what he wants! This is just the begining of all the joys he will bring to my life and I cant wait to experience even if it means I get a few grey hairs!!!
Heres a few newer pictures!!!

A couple Mins Old

7months old

How fast time flies.

2008-10-07T19:49:00.001-04:00

I am so thankful for my son.

2008-09-24T20:59:00.003-04:00

You never realize how precious your little ones are until you hear about a child their age dealing with something that should of never been given to them to manage. Then again I think of the saying God doesnt give you more than you can handle. But how does he choose who has to deal with something and the next person doesnt. Someone dying is never something easy to take, why me, why them are some of the questions everyone asks. If your the one dealing with it the last thing you want to hear is, it was their time, god wanted an angel. I never really understood this until the world lost one of the most amazing young men who was making a difference in everyone whom he was friends with. His name is Joshua Stone, he was the one who got my husband and myself together somehow he knew we were right for each other so not only do I thank god for my husband but I also thank god for Joshua Stone. He was taken from this earth WAY WAY to soon and for what reason? Then I think about Josh as a person, if he was given the chance to take his own life or those of his friends, I am almost willing to bet he would have taken his own for everyone else to be happy. That was the type of person he was, he wasnt selfish, he wasnt rude. He befriended anyone, it didnt matter what color your skin was,how your hair looked,how much you weighed,weather or not you could read...none of that mattered to Josh what matter was being their friend. His funeral was the most heart renching funeral I've ever been to but you should of seen the amount of people who attended, that alone tells you he touched so many lives in so many ways. Looking around at the funeral there was all different walks of life and the one person who brought us all together was Joshua Stone. Maybe he was an angel and god felt he had given all he wanted him to give, but I sometimes question that. I wanted my son to know his other Uncle Josh, I wanted to see Robert and Josh teach Parker things he shouldnt do, I wanted Josh to experience having his own child. There are so many babies that were born since Josh's passing, maybe its god's way of giving back because he took such a wonderful person I just wish he wouldn't of choosen Josh.

Anyway I got wat off topic the reason I wrote this blog was because there is a march baby who is suffering from a heart defect and he was receltly sent to the hospital where he suffered brain damage from coding. his life is hanging in the balance, as i sit here and watch my son sleep it brings tears to my eyes to think there is a baby his age in the hospital fighting for his life when he should be home in his crib where HIS mommy can sit and watch him sleep. Say a prayer for baby Seth and his family! The picture is of baby Seth, the one fighting for his life! please keep him in your thoughts and prayers.

Sunday,Sunday,Sunday!

2008-09-07T21:45:00.006-04:00

This morning the hubby and I woke up bright and early because we had all intentions to go to the zoo today because it was $5 zoo day.We get to my mother in laws house because thats where Parker was and we were taking his siter emily with us and is mother in law infoms of that Parker was up all night and had a runny nose along with running a temperture. At first I was a lil upset because I had my hopes up in going then it hit me, this is the mommy life I wanted so badly and these are the things that happen, not on purpose but because thats just how life goes. I've learned to just roll with the punches, but it wasnt an easy road to find. With the help of my own wonderful mother and a huge support system I have come to find that road and hope to stay on it. So instead of the zoo we all went to breakfast to Ihop I havent been there since I was pregnant with Parker and was looking forward to my stuffed french toast but when my breakfast came it was not what i had in mind. Before I would of pitched a huge fit making a scene in the resturant but for some reason I just wanted to cry...it wasnt what I order and it wasnt what I wanted, but instead of being a brat I just ate it. My husband got mad because the lady offered to take it back but I didnt want spit or that cook to wipe his ass then touch my food so I kept it. He just seems really testy these days but it probaly doesnt help that I am constantly telling him what hes doing wrong, gotta work HARD on that one before he just gives up completly. so anyway I lost my train of thought.

The real reason I started writing my blog today was because I just got done reading one of my moms post about a small town and the memories she has. Of course I didnt grow up in a small town but I have memories from when I was growing up. One of them being the sat morning cleaning fest we did with mom and dad if he was home, we all had our own list, mom was huge with the whole list thing, i swear that women was up at 3am starting everyones LIST. We cleaned along with Bob Segar, REO speedwagon,Pat Bennatar,and some others, thats when mom got her 5 cd changer that thing was on auto pilot and went all damn morning.Once we finished cleaning we were aloud to play or do what we wanted, well last night while I was in the middle of this post, my son woke up and i ended up going to bed with him...sorry for cutting it short, life right now is crazy!

Parker is Crawling!

2008-09-05T21:51:00.004-04:00

Yes its true my sweet baby boy is now crawling! Hes not fast yet but hes getting there, he can stop sit up on his own and then crawl the other way. I can not believe hes already hitting this milestone, along with having 2 teeth and eatting baby food off a spoon! He LOVES all the fruits, oatmeal, but for some reason one time he'll like peas and the next time he wont, then one time he'll like green beans and the next time he wont! He does NOT like sweet corn, just like his mommy!
On a not so good note, Parker took his first trip to the emergency room on wednesday night. He was in bed with me and I went to go get him from the other side but he seen a bottle and before I knew it he botled off the side of the bed onto TILE floor. He screamed right away which was a good sign. Once I got him settled down he was sleeping, at first when i tried waking him up he wouldn't so I freaked but he finally woke up. I call his Doc and they wanted to see him and when they seen him they said he was okay but throughout with day he was whinny, refusing the bottle and not eating much except drinking Pedilite. I called his Doc again to tell them what was going on and they wanted him seen just to make sure its nothing. Once we got to the hospital they did a CT scan and everything came back negative which is a good sign. We were released and went home. The next day he was back to his normal Parker self, eatting like a lil pig and being my sweet little boy! I know this happens to everyone but I felt so guilty, how could I let that happen? Needless to say we no longer sleep on the bed!
We'll keep checking back I will do my best keeping this up for everyone along with adding the newest photos!! Here are some pictures